My little brother has a “crush” on me.

So yeah basically the title.

I (15ftm) have a little brother (9m) who I’ll call David.

So today my mom came up to me in the kitchen and said she found a note in David’s room tucked between two books. She proceeds to read me the contents of the note. For the sake of brevity, I’ll sum it up. “I have a crush on my big brother. I think he and me are going to get married someday.” And a WHOLE LOT more. He goes on and on about my body and after she reads it, all the weird shit he’s done starts to make sense.

The other night I was on the phone and David comes to say goodnight and walks away. I continue my conversation with my friend for about 20 more minutes until I nearly jump out of my skin when I see David staring through the slightly open bit of my door. When I see him, he starts laughing. I thought he might have been there for less than 2 minutes just to scare me until he starts asking questions about the things I said to my friend more than 15 minutes ago.

I stopped wearing pants around the house a couple months ago because I feel more comfortable without them. I wear a baggy shirt and underwear. During this same time, David starts insisting I go first when walking up the stairs. Whenever I tell him no and he’ll bitch and moan about it. David also loves to touch me. He’ll pretend to be a dog sometimes and will sniff me in inappropriate areas. And after seeing my dad slap my mom on her butt, he decided he was gonna do that to me. After the millionth time of telling him to stop, my mom yelled at him and that’s when he decided it wasn’t fun anymore.

I can’t believe I have to say this, but please do not comment anything that is blaming me for any of this, disregarding this because I’m older than him, or saying that I’m sexualizing him or myself.