(FtNB) Will a strap/phalloplasty ever be as good as the ‘real thing’?

Hey guys, I hope this is okay to ask here but as a FtNB/M person with awful bottom dysphoria who’s mostly dated or been into queer men or amab enbies/girls who like to bottom to some degree, it bothers me a lot, and I honestly just want to know how doomed I am.

I don’t mind bottoming but in an ideal world I would’ve been born with a penis and much prefer both being dom and a top, and at the minute the only thing I can provide is a prosthetic or strap of some kind. Obviously I’m aware ftm/nb prosthetics for sex are getting better and better, and some are very similar in feel and texture to a cis penis especially when warmed and when they have sliding skin and ejaculation and all that jazz, but even then they’re still not ‘real’ nor do they have full sensation for the wearer as if it was being touched like a sensate part of their own body. I’m hoping that either the NHS or my own funds (or combo thereof) will come through and I’ll be able to get phalloplasty in the future… Though of course that has its own risks in general (mostly the fear of not gaining/losing sensation for me). And even if all goes well in the near future it’s not like there’s a direct way to ejaculate either, nor does it have the exact skin feel of a natal penis, nor can it create the exact same feelings of it throbbing inside of someone I don’t think. Any chance of either phalloplasty or prosthetics being more like a natal dick for both the wearer/haver and receiver are at best probably 20-30+ years into the future, if we even get there by then.

I guess my question is just simply ‘Are any guys who are subs and/or into bottoming at all really happy just with a strap/prosthetic/phalloplasty and actually prefer this to a natal penis?’ I know a lot of people say that the main thing woman-attracted bottoms/vers people are into is the person being and looking like a woman, and sometimes having a vagina, but I can’t help think yeah but you can get all of that plus a natal dick from a trans woman or feminine man (who’ve kept their natal parts and wants to top), especially if they’ve had some form of penis-preserving vaginoplasty. I’m pretty monogamous but even if I wasn’t it’d absolutely kill me if my partner wanted to also be with someone with a natal penis because they weren’t satisfied with what I can offer; just knowing they’re doing everything that I want to but can’t.

Obviously this is no hate or malice against non-op and top transfems, I have big love and respect for them, but I end up feeling so jealous at times because as an afab person I feel like I’ll never be good enough for a guy (or anyone) who wants to bottom, and my only options are either to force myself into faking being a total submissive, bottom cis woman for some big, straight macho alpha man, or end myself to stop the suffering both of my own body not being what I want it to be and of inevitably seeing my partner cheat on me or leave me for someone with a dick.

I hope this is okay to post, and I’m aware for some bi guys the struggle of ‘choosing’ between a woman (or afab person) and a man in monogamy has been difficult and brings its own pain and fears, but I just want to get some sense of if I actually have hope or not in a relationship that I’d actually want.