I think I'm finally getting a bit better

20m. I think I'm finally getting better. The last two years were shitty for the most part, but I feel like life's going uphill again. Over the last two years, I've felt super unwanted, especially romantically and sexually. I'm not a really handsome guy, and I got rejected a lot by girls. There was one instance where I went to the club and got rejected by every girl I approached. That pushed me into inceldom. I am quite ashamed of it, but I was an incel for a long time and only got better during these last months. When I say I was an incel, I mean the whole package, with all the antifeminism and misogynism. It's honestly embarrassing, because at one point I realized how cool the women in my life were, and I also remembered how some girls were romantically interested in me, but it never worked out. I've been going to Therapy for two months now, and it really helps. But sometimes, questions about the future still bother me, mostly romantic questions. Will I have a girlfriend someday? Do I even want one? Those types of questions. Anyway, that's it I guess.