The experience of being ugly

Hi, I'm 17 years old and I've realized that I'm not convegentially attractive. I am 175 centimeters tall and weigh less than 68 kilograms, however, I mostly wear size S clothes and size EM pants because my hips and lower abdomen are quite voluminous.But I always had a tendency to be plump, especially in the face; my face is, without exaggeration, huge.Also, my skin is oily, prone to breakouts and things like that. In all my 17 years, I have never met anyone who loved me back.I'm an interesting person who knows quite a lot of interesting things, but my rather ugly appearance spoils everything.I want love, I want to be loved, but again, the likelihood that someone will like me is very small, all my potential partners rejected me. I don't despair, I have a wonderful job in a kindergarten, many good friends and a loving family.