Literally underwent two psychoanalysis - just to be 100% sure that truly lived the reality as I remember it or not.

That also the ‘Real deal’ not a cheap paid conversation to take comfort based on half baked stories and lies. Do you even know what being ‘truthful’ is? Well, from the looks of it and the recent ‘event’ (took place just hours ago) it doesn’t seem so. Give up, it is futile - just as my efforts to heal what you don’t even find broken were.