I guess I’m meant to be alone

I don’t have anyone I never did.

Austin is gone. Mitchell is gone.

What a summer wasted.

April to September it’s all over. It’s been a month since and looking back I still feel I didn’t do anough to keep ya around. I don’t know what is wrong with me. People come to me and rhen after a while they move on. Is that because I’m just not try too hard? I don’t know but I’m just discouraged. I know there is more guys I could meet in the future but for what. To come and go just like theres two did? I can’t deal with the hurt and crying nights anymore. I’m not putting myself back out there just to get shut back home again. Why did I even bother going out at the first place? I should just stay home forget trying to find happiness that would seem it never exists at all. I’m tired of all this.