"Why didn't he say anything?"

I'm here to vent because I noticed something. I have depression, suicidal thoughts all the time, and the scary thing is they don't seem to come from depression anymore, they seem... logical. Like what am I doing here? If I was gone, would I have made an impact? The answer is NO, I'm a nobody, that have given nothing to the lives of those around me. Nothing of substance I mean. Anyway... I usually see in Mental health awareness pages the phrase "Speak up when you feeling sad, don't keep it in". Guys we do speak up, they just brush it aside, they don't care when you tell them "I don't really find any meaning in my life" or "I feel like a waste of space"...the signs are there. I'm pissed off because they try to make it seem as if the suicidal person doesn't talk. No sweetie, we talk, we say something, but most of you, are too busy to give a fuck.