I'm just a coward

I don't know where I'm at. I don't feel like a woman. But I don't necessarily feel like a man either. I've been envious of women for at least the past 20 years. But maybe I'm just a creep or a pervert.

If transitioning was "acceptable", you know, it's just something people do at times. Yea, I would do it in a heart beat. But it's not.

Am I just scared?