Binge ED/ Food Addiction Help?

Please can anybody give me advice on how to stop binging. I’ve had pretty bad depression and anxiety and use food to cope and escape bc I was too scared to use medication. I’ve gained so much weight, feel so tired,and feel trapped. I don’t fit any of my clothes and my family is my number one critic in my appearance and diet. So know I sneak my food, buying it all at school or making whatever and eating a bunch even if I don’t like it. I don’t fit any of my clothes any more and I don’t feel like me. I just wish I could go in the middle of the forest and sleep. The stress of family, school, expectations, and life circumstances are getting to me. I’m really scared to fall back into depression as I’ve been feeling kind of zoned out or numb since school has started a couple of weeks ago. I’ve also got a terrible addiction to social media now too along with food. I don’t have energy anymore and I just lie there rotting away to escape. O can’t do this anymore and I want to escape the loop I am trapped in. I’m 21 and I should be making the most of my youth but I let everyone’s opinions and my responsibilities get the best of me. So can anyone please help me, what should I do?