Being alone in the romantic and sexual areas is hard enough but being alone entirely, with no friends or family is starting to become unbearable

I'm almost 30 and I've never been in a relationship. I'm pretty much a virgin. I haven't hung out or done anything social since my high school days. It's really been getting harder and harder to deal with the older I get, especially at certain times. Like I love this time of year with fall and Halloween and I try to enjoy it as best as I can alone but I can only so much. I go to a Halloween store and see and hear friends and families having fun, talking about their plans or whatever and it kills me. I see things about haunted houses or other activities and the people that go there together, knowing I'll never be able to enjoy that with people. I watch movies and shows with Halloween parties, trick or treating, and think back to my days as a kid and it kills me because I realize I'll never have a family going forward to be able to do any of that with again.

I really do feel like my time is done. It's gone and passed and now I'm just waiting for it to be over.