21 years old, been in for 2 years in the Army and getting med boarded

I really shouldn’t be here rn, I don’t know how I passed MEPS or Basic and AIT. I made a stupid life decision when I was facing being kicked out and homeless, just out of nowhere a marine recruiter got me to swear into MEPS, where eventually I switched to Army.

All I’m gonna say is I’ve been absolutely miserable, I hate my job, I’m broke as shit, constantly get called into work on the weekend, my team hates me, I could go on all day. I’ve been going to behavioral health for the last few months and have been diagnosed with GAD, ADD, and Suicidal Ideation. I honestly wish I didn’t make it past MEPS, but oh well. I was told by my BH provider that I will be getting med boarded but the whole process is not only long but it got delayed because of NTC.

I’ve been thinking about getting discharged one way or the other and ending it all when I get back. Just don’t have the will to live anymore I guess, the military was my last chance at life and I couldn’t even do that