Killing myself

My old ass fuck mother snooped into my tampons looking for blood to check if I am on my period. I have been faking one for the past 5 months, it's genuinely over. She threw the others I have saying "why would you need them? We'll talk tomorrow." I hate her retarded face. I hate how she treats me as if I'm 16, fuck no, 10. I want to say what I'd do to her, but it'll get me on a few watchlists.