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It has been 4 months since I last saw you. 4 months ago, I thought everything was going great until your avoidance took over. I got too close. You stood me up last minute after I'd been looking forward to seeing you all week. You let me get excited for nothing. 4 months since I told you that I love you. Your response? "I like that you feel that way about me" before you changed the subject. You asked me not to block or ghost you. You offered friendship. I didn't know how to go to being only friends with you, after having let my walls down, and opened up to you emotionally and physically, letting you into my heart and body. I wasn't ready to let go yet so I appeased to your daily texts and flirting, because at least I got to still feel connected to you. You get the daily validation and attention, knowing that someone loves and cares about you. All I get is false promises of someday in the future and breadcrumbs. It's not fair. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of hurting. I'm going to have to block and ghost you because it hurts to love someone who's only using me for attention and validation. I know you'll find someone else to play the same mind games with. I hope somehow you heal.