Hopeless

Cant even talk to anyone for more than 2 seconds, so no one talks to me either I just exist for some reason I dont even know. Feel like a background character everywhere I am and if I'm with a group of friends they forget about me but mostly its my fault I can't talk abt somthn interesting if I was held at gun point. Sometimes i manage to talk with boys but when it comes to girls I'm hopeless most of the time I feel I'm just a weirdo creep that's why they dont talk to me but I dont know atp I think I'll try everyday to change this but its been half a decade and nothings changed. People just say talk but its harder than anything I've ever done now I just feel guilty for everything I say thinking I must've said something bad that's why they aren't talking to me. Feel like everyone hates me even though I haven't talked to them