Fulfillment through cinema

I watch a film every day for the last fourteen years. Im very passionate about it and i believe it is the best medium to experience aesthertics melancholy through. Somehow though it doesnt fulfill me and after i see the given film usually at noon it leaves me empty and i forget most of it as i dont think about it a lot after ive seen it. What do you do to be more passionate and mindfull about cinema? There arent many books about it to read and they are not really fun or interesting most of them.. so i would like some suggestions of parallel things you do to fulfill you more with your cinema obsession apart from just watching films.. tyia.