I hate how I look....

People often say I look ugly, I really wish I could show what I look like here, but I can't...I have brown hair and green eyes, my face is breaking out everywhere, and I hate myself...I often had thoughts of "what if I was gone?" I do not need mental help, i just...I'm depressed...and on October 5th, my aunt had a stroke and...a brain bleed...I'm afraid she is gonna die....I'll blame myself because...that's what I always do...