I Think I’m Pushing Everyone Away Without Meaning To

I’ve been acting weird lately and i know people can feel it but i can’t stop it even if i want to. I don’t reply fast anymore i avoid going out and when i’m around people it’s like i’m just not fully there. I care about them but at the same time i feel like i’m getting more comfortable being alone even tho it kinda hurts. I’m scared one day they’ll just stop trying and i’ll lose everyone without even knowing why.