Desperate need for advice on current therapist

I have been going to my therapist for close to two years now. I had never been in one on one thearpy before this. I struggle from PTSD, OCD (not the cleaning kind), Major Depression, Anxiety disorders and dissassociation.

I leave therapy so many of the times feel worse. I get accuses me of being manipuliative because I have trouble saying some things that are hard or embarassing to say out loud. She asks me things like "do you think you try to make your family and kids unhappy because you are unhappy? Sometimes it seems like you do" (She said this right after I was explaining the guilt and saddness I felt for ruining a family trip we had scheduled because of my current depressive state) She asks me about self harm, and gets frustrated but never explores the feelings behind it or helps. I just feel judged and ashamed all the time. It's been two years and she has been the only one I told certain things and I have such a hard time switching but I need to know if this sounds normal or toxic for therapy.