What is ur most traumatic( school or inter) hostel experience?

They really took a mental toll on me being in intermediate girls hostel I got attracted ended up sexualizing or objectifying my fella classmates 😭😭😭I dumped my trauma on friends and family too ,my friends were chill about it 💀 🙏 my dad was terrified as fuck although he still is , BTW I didn't even watch a single corn video at that time , I was naive and nerdy thought myself I'm a man disguised as woman , what could be the reason ! I'm attracted to men too 😏 I confirmed myself I'm attracted to both genders but back then being naive it messed up me mentally and academically 😔😔😔