:(

Yesterday I went to visit some extended family I hadn’t seen in a while. I had just eaten a big dinner.

Idk if it was just in my head but it felt like my weight loss was the elephant in the room for a while. After a little bit of time passed, people got too comfortable and started making comments about how im not “too skinny” and I “actually look ok”….then someone made a joke about how my legs are small but my belly looks big.

I know this isn’t true and I’m just uw so anything I eat shows immediately and I had on a cropped top and high rise yoga pants. In retrospect I probably looked like I was pregnant with a gut hanging out. I keep thinking about it. I was doing so well intuitively eating the past few days and now I feel like a whale. I want to stop thinking about food 24/7 and I want it to stop ruling my life. I wish I could crawl into a hole until I fade away. How do I make myself not bloat after eating? Feels like I shouldn’t eat at all. I’m so tired and nauseous and low energy and sad.