I am just so down, i feel like im going to give up everything again, quit my job, and just stare at the ceiling the rest of my life. My Fiance left me, and i just dont know what to do with myself.

Hello guys, so as mentioned my Fiance left me. I know this is usually one of those short term sadness for everyone dealing with a breakup, but i just dont think ill get over this one.

When i found her i was just getting out of a depression stage of my life, i had just been off work for 2 years with mental health and finally got a job and got back to normal again. Ever since then ive worked really hard to be able to afford to be with her, because she lives in Indonesia and the flights, visas etc are quite expensive. The first time ever in my life i felt motivated, i had a goal, i had things i wanted in life, and now theyre all gone.

Ive built my entire life around being the best person i could be for this girl... and now shes gone, and it was all because we couldn't communicate properly... shes the first and only time ive actually loved anyone, shes my first girlfriend in general to be honest... which is pretty sad when you are 28.

I have struggled with mental health all my life, but this is just extremely painful. Whats the point in doing all the stuff i have built for her for the past year and a half. She motivated me to do better, and i just dont feel motivated to do those things for myself. I dont know what im going to do... ive already been off work for 3 days, i feel paralysed. I just think to myself what is the point