39 [M4F] Canada, USA, online, looking for the unexpected, the spontaneous, and simplicity all in one person!

I guess I'm a little lost, I will be 40 next November. Single, never married, no kids.

And I'm not sure where I stand in terms of platonic or amorous relationships. I have been taking care of myself, and made myself a #1 priority since May 2024. I consider myself a good Christian, even when I was poor in spirit. My life has been sprinkled with hardship even since I was a teenager. Somehow, I still remain. Grateful, yet restless. I crave peace. I crave someone who will reach for my hand and tell me to sit down on the couch, although I can actually do that myself. Maybe I'm already doing it. Not isolating, not lonely, I embraced my solitude. Yet, I wait for you patiently. Is it boring love that I need? Who knows. I'm getting overwhelmed of short lighted sparks. It's a series of micro-heartbreaks, short love stories that keep accumulating and leaving me unsatisfied. My intellect, my soul craves for more.