
Hope I’m doing this right. I really really did not think this post would blow up as big as it did and it’s kinda terrifying. Honestly fighting the urge not to delete it. Anyways a couple people asked for an update so I thought I’d give. 

 TLDR. We broke up. He’s blocked on everything. Has no way to reach out and no way for me to reach out if I decide to backtrack. As I don’t remember any of his socials or number lol. Ty bad memory. 

For those curious on what went down. While he was at work I gathered my stuff packed it up in my car and called a friend. I’ll be staying with her and family while I get back on my feet which shouldn’t be too much trouble. 

I told him I was not picking him up. He could find a way home where we needed to have a talk. Once upon a time he said his biggest thing was if we ever broke up that it be in person. Unlike him i do in fact respect peoples rules (as a saw some people saying boundaries was the incorrect term and that is totally valid) and I never want to stoop to his level. So this is why I decided to do it in person. 

I wish for the people who said I should be strong, cold and collected that I was, but unfortunately I broke down into tears like halfway through the we are done. For anyone who wanted to see a girlboss exit, with slapping and cursing I fear this isn’t it. It’s quite pathetic, so please turn away now if that’s what you’re looking for! Sorry guys. 

I’m sorry I don’t remember much of the conversation. Some people predicted he would lash out, he did not. It was a lot more of him going I understand while I explained that this was not going to work. I asked him if he wanted it to end because that was the vibes he was giving, and he said no of course not. I asked him if I was just a placeholder in his life, if he strung me along because it was easy. 

He told me he wouldn’t spend as much time with me as he does if it wasn’t fun. Wouldn’t take me to meet his family if he didn’t love me. That while sometimes it was hard, being able to talk to me made it so much better, that even during this, the best part was that I was talking to him. A lot of other things but again my memory is pretty hazy. 

I can see now how this is probably manipulative, and I think it would’ve have worked if it wasn’t for the post. So thank you guys. 

I told him I know, that if he was able to make actually make a change in his behaviour, in his treatment of me that this would’ve worked. But it’s clear over the countless times I’ve given him, that he doesn’t care enough to. I got up to leave and I honestly think it’s at this point he realized it was real, and none of his tactics were working. 

He started crying. Real heavy emotional shit. He’s not a crier when he isn’t getting his way, he isn’t a crier at all. So I don’t think this was unintentional. Think it was just the weight of it all and that was really really hard to see. 

At the end of the day, even if no one understands, I did love him. Our relationship was really really beautiful in the grand-scheme of things, and that makes it so hard. As unfortunately it is clear he didn’t feel the same, and if he did it was too late. He texted me as I was leaving asking me to stay. I told him I couldn’t do this , that if he had any serious concerns to reach out to a mutual friend of ours. And blocked him.  

That’s the update. I have been crying in bed all day hoping it’ll be out of my system by work. Life is a lot quieter without him but I’m trying to remind myself at least the stress is gone. 

Lastly I realize I spelt juvenile wrong in the og post. Unfortunately I was crying the entire time and spelling was not on my mind LOL. 

Update I think I need to break up with my boyfriend AIO