My spiritual life is ruined. I'm lost and can't find my way.

Hello brothers and sisters, I came to faith three years ago through various experiences. However, for several reasons, I still haven't had the courage to be baptized. There are two reasons for this.

1. For three years, I've attended mass and liturgy in both Catholic and Orthodox churches. I've prayed to find the right church and read the Bible, but both denominations still feel right in their own way. I don't want to pray as much anymore. I feel like I've entered a paradox with no way out.

2. I'm Turkish, and whenever I talk to other Christians, they constantly say things like, "You're Greek," "Constantinople is Greek," and it feels so sad and strange. How can I reject my identity? I was born this way. God doesn't have a nationality, right?

Please pray and want pray for me, friends. Amen.