Need someone to hear

22M,Single and stays with my family and on my way to open a startup -> If this feels big plz ask chatgpt to give bullet points it will be faster

My dad is an alcoholic and creates numerous issues, like even after my best attempt to not go out of my room, he still comes to my room and starts humiliating me for hours without a break. If he sees even a slight angry expression, he gets more angry or sometimes hits me.

I was forced to do things which were never meant for me, but I finally stood my ground to do a startup. Due to my uncle believing in my dream, my mom got quiet, but my dad still speaks ill of my dreams. Recently, I’ve been going to a co-working space so that before spending big on the startup, I can do freelancing for a while in my niche, understand it better, and then build it. Recently, things have started to work, and my first USA customer liked my work. But lately, it feels emotionally heavy. I haven’t spoken to anyone for more than 45 days, which is fine. The real problem starts at home because I’ve stopped taking holidays and go to work every single day from morning to night, which has worked, as my dad doesn’t get a chance to come at me. But one day, I rarely took a holiday, and he was drunk and came and started speaking ill, so I canceled the holiday, got dressed up, and left for work.

I tried therapy, and they told me to do psychodynamic, but it was costly, and until my startup gets its wings, I can’t spend even a penny. I have been working on self-development, but it still feels heavy. I thought of talking to some girls but couldn’t, as my situation isn’t good, but I am still working on myself.

Thank you for listening to my rant