Sometimes I feel like life is moving, but I’m not really in control…

I don’t really know where to start… but I just need to get this out.

Some days I feel like I’m trying to control my life, my choices, my thoughts, but then something happens, or I realize a thought in my head, and I have no clue what’s actually happening.

I think I want one thing, but then I do something completely different. I tell myself not to do something, yet I do it anyway. It’s like I’m watching my own life happen, but I don’t have the remote.

Does anyone else feel like this? Like you’re both yourself and a stranger in your own mind?

I guess I’m trying to figure out how to understand myself better… how to really control my thoughts and actions. But some days, even that feels impossible.

Any advice, experiences, or even just words of understanding would mean a lot.