Nightmares

I recently decided to cut the connection in my head and it’s worked well. Control of intrusive thoughts, no impulse to overthink. I feel at peace about it all for the first time in a long time. I’ve done this for me, it doesn’t mean I don’t care about the connection, I just care about myself too much to keep hurting my own heart.

I go to bed and read and feel fine. But every night for the past week I’ve had deeply disturbing dreams about my tf.

Has this happened to anyone else? Does anyone else know why this might happen? I’ve only dreamed of them a few times in the past but this past week every night without fail a nightmare. It leaves me feeling unsettled all day. And the dreams are so intense I wake up almost paralysed working out for the first five minutes of being awake if it’s even real. When there’s a wave of realising it’s not I feel blank, like I can’t think of anything. It’s bizarre