The firsts.

A year ago today, everything in my 6 year relationship started going to shit. Although my healing has improved, this next month is going to be extremely difficult for me. I can literally play back every day of November 2024. We officially broke it off completely December 2nd 2024.

So I ask you this. Will I start feeling even better once all the "firsts" are over? I am so exhausted from my emotions being all over the place.

I don't want to have to "fake it til I make it" anymore. I want to actually make it.