i can't go to school anymore

in 2022, my mom was suspicious that i was autistic, but we couldn't afford the diagnosis so we just waited. school that year was cool, i had a group of friends and the schedule was from 1 pm to 6 pm, my friends understanded me when i said that maybe i was autistic. but then, everything went downhill when i changed to another school in 2023. there, the schedule was from 7am to 16 pm, this exausted me. i cried everyday before going go school and begged to my parents to let me stay home. i only went to school for 3 months, and then I missed every day because i couldn't go there, i couldn't stand it. i had lost all my friends. in this school, everyone made jokes about autism and bullied another autistic students. i stopped going to school in may 2023, it was eighth grade and somehow i got into ninth grade. (it was in September that i got my diagnosis) 2024, the principal told my mom that i needed to get back to school or the CPS (is that what you call it there?) would be called. we got scared and i started to go to school again. it all happened again but i couldn't miss because i was scared that CPS would take me away from my family. i had no friends, everyone in school bullied me everyday bc i am autistic. i spent the entire year alone. 2025, i'm in the first year of high school. the school was pretty good, i made a friend who was autistic too (but she didn't liked talking about that and didn't respect my boundaries.. we are not friends anymore), but one month in and i started to feel like in 2023 again. i stopped going in february and ever since i didn't set a foot in that school. i don't know whats wrong with me, i just wanna go to school. and im scared of CPS again..