do you ever look at pictures of yourself befoure your depression or anxiety started ?

I do, it gives me sort of hope ill get back to the old me again.. but at the same time i feel hopeless that this will stay with me for ever, and theres no escaping, hopelesness. but i do think about some of the happy times befoure all this started. when i graduated from high school, got my driving license.. i remember then being happy