bpd relapse

i don't even know where to start. lost my job about 2 weeks ago. i think that's what's triggered this episode. ive been working so hard the past year to get my BPD symptoms under control. and then when i lost my job... it feels like everything collapsed. in 2 weeks i lost a whole year of prpgress. im in 100k of debt. i have to finish school. i have to take care of my husband. i have to move soon. ive began to self harm again. my ed is back to taking over my life. my husband has had to deal with my sudden emotional outbursts. he deserves so much better than me. i want to end it all. i dont want to deal with this anymore. i cant tell my husband how much ive been aching. my chest hurts every single day. like i feel like im going to die of a heart attack. i cant do this anymore. is anybody at all able to talk to me? please.