I need to find a roommate and am just burnt out

I’m 30 and he passed away 1.5 years ago this week at age 31 unexpectedly, we weren’t married but were about to move in together and spent everyday for years together (he half lived in my apt). I’m knee deep in grief and now in debt from therapy and medical expenses from everything.. barely holding onto my job and I need to find a place to live. I have pets that mean the world to me, and have been genuinely trying my absolute hardest. My heath declined rapidly into more or less a nervous breakdown, with physical issues ongoing. I have no family or friends I can live with, and I’m just worn down. I live in one of the most expensive parts of the country to stay close to family and help them (but they’re broke too and wouldn’t allow my pets) and am underpaid, but applying to jobs daily. I never thought I’d have to figure out a room to rent or strangers to live with, and it’s difficult with pets and ongoing grieving. Has anyone else been in this situation? Any advice is appreciated and I’m sorry to complain about stuff that is mundane, if month 1 me read this I would be so offended or upset cus how could it matter, but it’s my reality right now.