I have been struggling badly for 3 months after starting 2025 strong

I have been struggling with porn addiction for about 25 years now. I have been married for almost 15 years and have two children. I feel like I have robbed my family and myself of better times because of my addiction. My addiction can be time consuming. Hours a day can be lost due to my chronic impulses. I started 2025 pretty good. I had my longest streak ever going 30 days porn earlier this year. Now I am in a phase where I relapse daily. Today I am rededicating myself. Cutting off access points and . . . My wife just left the house for 2 hrs. I couldn't help myself. I turned on the Xbox in the living room (the only access point left). And edged for about an hour. It took about 20 minutes to get myself sorted. Now I am back to writing this. You can see what a mess I am! I've almost gotten caught several times wanking it to the big screen TV in the living room. My wife has caught me a few times in 15 years looking at porn and wanking it once. (that was a major embarassment). But wanking to the family room big screen TV!! That can not happen. More importantly I just want to give 100% to my wife physically and emotionally. So I would really like make my relapse today the last. I want to give my family 100%. If I miss 1 1/2 hours of work in the middle of the afternoon, that is bad too! Oh man. I need help. I am gearing up for MoVember. I want to go a full month no relapse. It felt great when I did it in May. My wife enjoyed it much more too! I need to get back that type of focus. Wish me luck!