23 [M4F] hopeful romantic looking for my other half c: #USA #Florida #Online

I guess I'll have another go xd may this post find you in good health physically, mentally, spiritually. If not, I hope life treats you a bit kinder :< <3

I have a lot to say, a lot to give and share. I hope in any way, even on this accursed platform, I'll find you. I know not of who you are or where. If I have met you already or still yet to. I'm still open to those I've met before. Things can change, grow. I hope life has treated you well, even if you just want to chat and update on how life's going! I'm not as chronically online xd esp here but still, I'd like to hear from you !!

Anyway, about me: •hispanic/latino. I'm brown XD I have longer hair now, black and it gets curly c: I wear glasses. 5'7 if that matters •I speak english and spanish, though not fluent but its enough. Also a teeny weeny bit of indigenous dialect •I LOVE art and music. Making art, listening to music. I also like to be nerdy and critically analyze pieces or sometimes just enjoy it bc it sounds/looks nice XD •I also have PC/switch/steamdeck. I love Ultrakill, Fortnite, Kingdom Hearts, Minecraft and many others. I hope we can play sometime :3 •I also like anime as well! My big ones are Berserk, Soul Eater, MP100, HxH. Just to name a few. I'm also caught up on the manga for Berserk. I really really like Berserk. Guts my beloved 🥹 and ofc normal TV shows also. A couple youtubers as well

I do want to say, I have been diagnosed with MDD since 2016, and I'm sure it was present the year prior. I did not live a good childhood. Life was not kind, and at times still is not kind with me. I can elaborate another time, however, know this. I am trying my absolute best. I am learning so much, and I'd like to learn with someone. I am extremely insecure about my appearance and it has internalized greatly. I had perpetuated it because I was convinced by my family, and it had echoed in my heart for the longest time. I had no one to tell me otherwise, to snap me out of it. It had led me to neglect myself, harm it even, and so my appearance now is a result of that. I really did not expect myself to be here beyond 2016. It's hard to work on a body whose stress physically manifests. Years of it. Whether it manifests as searing, or immense dull aching. Cold or blazing. Empty or extremely overwhelming. I care not though. I aim to keep working towards a better future for myself. I live to love. I wouldn't be here if it weren't for the mere thought I'd get to meet you, despite my bad luck. Despite the hand I was dealt with. What I was left with. At times nothing, and at times nothing and more taken from me, somehow. I'm trying to love myself, I swear. It's just, the closest I can to that was knowing how NOT to love, it was foreign to me, but. I do find myself loving what life can offer. It's places. It's people. Friends. Even if they go off to live their lives and my name fades from them. Their promises too. I don't care. They were kind. That gives me hope. Because at one point they thought that I was worth the energy/time to be acknowledged and talk to. I learn a little about myself, through their eyes. What they liked. Eventually I like the parts of myself that they liked. I want to love someone who's sees me as me. Discover myself in their eyes. So that I too, can see them for them, in a world of billions of people. They discover themselves in mine. That they are my world, and I am theirs. The two colliding. Separate and together at the same time, a paradox. In this bigger world. A love beyond distance and time. A love that knows no bounds. That does the impossible, a paradox.