I ‘20F’have been trying to fix things with my bf ‘21M’but he is pulling away.

I ‘20F’and my ex bf ‘21M’in relationship of 4 years. He wants to break up

Basically we have been together since 4 years, I didn’t leave the city to be with him and he is now doing job and i am still in college . But we almost break up every 6 months for 3-4 days but got back together but when serious break up happens it’s always me begginh him to come back and many times it has happened that he has said he losy feeling but we come back as normal.His problem with me is that i fight too much but i fight because he does things that make me feel ignored and many other things. He has verbally abused me and said many things in the past tho he has changed from past 1 year but i feel that i am always chasing me and he doesn’t love me like i do . Last we broke up because he was hiding something in chatgpt i broke up but i couldn’t be without him and i broke up because i wanted him to come back and change and reassure instead he agreed with the break up and and after 6-7 days of no contact i texted him he said stuff was not working out and u literally used to fight so much that it drove me insane and he blamed the whole thing on me . Then , i begged him to meet me when we met he just said it was my mistake without acknowledging that it was his actions too and according to him i never made any sacrifices or anything. He was adamant that i will not come back but when i asked him that is it final and when i said that i swear on my family if u said that u will not come back i will never bother u again . So at that moment he said he doesn’t know and he himslef is not sure if he would be back or not . I have been trying texting him but he on the other hand is getting irritated and sayinh why are u doing all this . I feel so sad that even after he disrespected me and stuff and he should have been apologised rightly but it is me who is chasing me . As i am in my home time i am literally alone and i dont feel like doing anything because my mind is super glued to him nowadays . I dont know what to do. And this situation has happened before also that he lost feelings and didn’t wanted to come back but due to me chasing he came back but this time it seems more extreme .He is ignorinh me so much but i dont want to lose him so i am trying. Because he has pulled away and he doesnt want to be in relationship and if i give up too i think it will end . He said that can we please stop trying and after we met he said he doesn’t know .Please suggest if i should continue trying or notor what to do?my only fear is that if i tryinh then it will completely end.