raised by abusive Muslim parents

I’m 14 years old and I’m female Im from saudi arabia and obviously or sadly I live in a Muslim household when I don’t believe in islam but I’m forced by parents they hit me when I don’t pray or when I don’t wear hijab, they don’t care about me getting bullied everyday and they think I’m just too sensitive. Pr I don’t understand ”jokes”when I know it’s bullying. They are so sick and stupid,Ignorant and everything bad you can think about they only care about money and how people will say about me or about them they never care about my feelings, they only care about That I always bring shame to them , I’m always too much, my mom is so strict she don’t allow to do anything even simple things, I swear I can’t handle this till I old I want to escape no matter how not safe this will be I’ll do anything just to get out of this life, my parents are the worst non of them are normal they’re so crazy, I don’t have anyone close to me here I have no friends no normal family members they all hate me and they are so not safe as my parents, no one can help me I can’t even trust strangers obviously I really need advices, its so hard to live like that for years maybe I can’t even run away then they don’t let me eat they look into my things and my phone and everything ( just because my mom it’s too worried about me) she just a liar that what she say but she only love control if she really worried about she wont abuse me everyday with everything im crying i dont matter to anyone