[21m][19f] My girlfriend asked me to share our story how can I treat her better after everything that happened?

Hi everyone, I’ve been in a relationship with my girlfriend for almost four years, Our relationship has had many ups and downs sometimes things are amazing, and other times we fight over the smallest misunderstandings.

She often felt I was distant or emotionally cold, which made her believe I didn’t care, Those little misunderstandings would grow until they turned into serious arguments blocking, insults, and both of us saying things we didn’t mean.

A few months ago, she even suggested breaking up over something minor, but I refused because I truly believed our relationship was worth saving, Then, four months ago, my father found out about us, he was really mad at me so it caused serious problems but then he was fine with it but I had to stop talking to her for a while, after a month, we got back together and honestly, she seemed even kinder and more loving than before.

One day she asked me to buy her a beauty product, I agreed, but my bank card stopped working due to some ID issues, I told her I’d get it later, but she thought I was avoiding her, When I fixed my card, I told her I’d order it from a different site because I was also buying something else, but she got upset, insisted on her site, and ended up blocking me again.

I tried to fix things, but she started talking to other guys to make me jealous, I completely lost my temper and said terrible things to her things I deeply regret, She cried and told me she didn’t want to be with me anymore.

Then came her birthday in October, From the start of the month, I tried everything I could to make peace before her birthday but she refused to talk to me at all, Three days before her birthday, I begged her not to let me miss it, but she stayed distant and upset about everything that happened. When her birthday finally came, I decided not to disturb her, hoping she’d enjoy her day, But around midnight, I found out that someone had messaged her saying, “Let’s get back together.” I completely lost control jealousy and doubt took over me, I called her and said awful things, She broke down crying and later explained that the guy was just joking, and the chat wasn’t serious at all she even showed me proof. That’s when I realized how badly I’d hurt her and how much damage I’d done, I truly thought I had lost her for good, I apologized, but she became even more determined to end things.

The truth is, I don’t want to lose her, She’s the most genuine and kind hearted person I’ve ever met. Can you guys give me advices other than break up?