anyone else struggle w. motivation & impulse control?

i assumed this was dopamine related, but notably this shit is excessive. For example, even though I'm not hungry, I HAVE to HAVE that food item I'm suddenly craving. No other substitue will do and I can literally feel my nervous system calm down & being able to finally fall asleep once I know the ubereats order is on its way. Or I HAVE to watch that movie. Or I HAVE to buy that thing.

As far as motivation, I had very mild adhd previously, so this isn't too surprising. But my worry is, even as I feel my baseline improving, i'm just not that motivated about anything. It's been oer a year since I did any photography. I don't care to do anything anymore but my immediate impulse whatever it is.

it's never been this bad. To reign in any impulse issues wasn't too tough when I wanted to. I previously quit cigarettes cold turkey, went vegetarian cold turkey for 10+yrs, and lived with roommates till I was 34 to save money. I've done water fasts lasting weeks before.

Amyone else relate and have any idea what is going on in our brains?