I don't wanna hurt you

I keep trying to message you and keep a bond with you cause I never truly hated you I disliked when it didn't seem like you'd compromise. I wanted to bond and strategies things with you. But it felt like youd just tell me what to do and that's that. But I wanted to talk to you and work and bond and get to know how you think about things your building. I wanted to do all things with you. My head was full of spinning doubts by the things you did which seem small to you but we're big to me.. even when I believed you cheated on me I still wanted to stay with you cause I've never felt a love for someone that made me compromise things I would have as things I will not do. I loved you truly I'm not right with everything I did but I never stopped. Id try to give you time to talk about things but they days would pass by so it wasn't ever to come. Instead I got stoned and said fuck it. When we both would burn the things we liked it burned out would like fire and ice. I wish instead I had stopped sooner to switch it up. Cause I think the stoned me was better by a mile. I miss you girl your my love my heart I love how smart you are and that you let me rant like I'm doing a chant. Your the one you see. I want to be the next thing you see in the morning. Miss you want to kiss you.