It's almost time...

I got word today that my mother is on hospice care at her assisted living facility. She's on her 4th bout of lung cancer, this time with lymph nodes involved. She's refused treatment & isn't really eating. She asked them to notify my siblings and me. I did see her 2 weeks ago at a family wedding. I said hello to her and was very polite because it was a really happy event and there was no room for any negativity. I don't know that I'm going to go see her. I won't mourn her passing. She's been abusive to me all my life. But, I'm not gonna throw a party either. I don't have enough emotion for her either way. I don't love her nor do I hate her. I'm almost 60 and worked through all of it decades ago. It's just surreal to be this close to closing this chapter for good and not feeling anything one way or the other.