Feeling weird

Okay… so I got a lump in 2022 they did a biopsy and everything was ok they drain it and that was it. Got pregnant in 2024, had my son in August and started noticing the lump again, they check me out did a biopsy and boom cancer strikes now, I’m feeling weird, I don’t know what to feel, is it going to kill me ? I really don’t know what to do, what are the next steps ? I’m refusing to see my doctor because I really don’t want to hear the truth yet