Feeling so dumb after catching my husband’s “habit”

Found out late last night that my (33f) husband (31m) is “addicted” to Onlyfans and porn.

I found out he has multiple subscriptions to women, and pays to talk with them via DMs and send nudes back and forth (while we’ve been married).

He’s even gone so far as to, I assume, pay for their phone numbers and have text conversations with them, as recent as yesterday……. We’re supposed to celebrate our 2 year wedding anniversary Saturday..

I understand the occasional porn vid, but I don’t know what to do with all this.

We’ve actively been trying to conceive, went through a miscarriage recently, I’ve felt our marriage has been amazing so far.

Now I feel as though I can trust anything he says.

I should also add, he says his addiction restarted on his last deployment.

Oof. Thanks for reading if you have. I feel like I can’t talk to anyone about this yet.