I understand everything, yet when assessed have nothing to show for it. It's debilitating.

M20, AuDHD, scored in the 98th percentile (≥130).

I try and try again, but I can’t change the way I think- and it’s holding me back from achieving any kind of formal qualification. I worry that I may never be able to fully demonstrate my abilities because of the constraints of conventional educational assessments. I’ve simply never been able to grasp how to adopt the shallower level of thought they often require.

When I learn, I do so by seeking to understand the underlying structure, rather than by memorising the surface-level answers that assessment criteria typically demand.

It’s a constant cycle of knowing that I know something, but not having what’s "checked off" at my disposal.

I require depth to such an extent that every teacher and lecturer I’ve ever had has been unable to elaborate on their subject area to the level I need- and that’s the only way I can then provide those “shallow” details.

I have no formal qualifications; I even left high school after becoming severely depressed because of this, and now I feel behind in life- all as a result of being twice exceptional.

Has anyone found approaches or strategies that helped them succeed if they, too, think in a similar way? Your input would be greatly insightful :)

Good luck out there in this weird world.