I love you in the silence

It’s in the quiet moments, like this one, that I find the courage to write this. The world is hushed, and the only sound is the soft rhythm of my own heart a rhythm that I fear, chants only for you.

I don’t know how to start, or where to place these words so they don’t feel like a burden. Do I write of your smile, the one that lights a room I’m merely standing in the corner of? Or do I write of the sound of your laughter, a melody i’ve replayed in my mind so many times it’s become my favorite song? Every detail is a treasure i’ve collected without you ever knowing.

We are friends, and I cherish that, I do. But my heart has always asked for more. It sees a future in the casual brush of our hands, it hears a promise in your casual "see you later." It builds entire worlds from the crumbs of your kindness. And in those worlds, I am not just the one who makes you laugh sometimes, but the one you turn to in the quiet. But this is the truth of my world, not ours. And so, these words will never find an envelope, never know a stamp. They will live and die here on this page, a secret testament to a feeling that is both my greatest joy and my most profound sadness.

You are everything, and I am in love with you. And that is all. It has to be. I will love you quietly, from a distance that feels like an ocean. I will be your friend, and I will lock this letter away with all the others I will never send.

I love you in the silence, because the silence is the only place where this love can truly live.