I struggle to go out and drink a couple of beers without wanting to buy cocaine and Im going out this weekend..

Over the last 10 years or so, whenever me and my friends would go out have a few drinks we usually end up buying coke, it just seems to go hand in hand with drinking. On average we go out every few months so it wouldnt be a weekly kind of thing but is very normalised in my circle.

However lately ive had more social gatherings and found myself dabbling a bit more with coke. Not a massive amount about, 1 gram each time im out and id share some with a friend.

I have a concert im due to attend this weekend and this is my last social gathering for a good few months (next will probably be christmas so I plan on having a detox for a good while). However I cant take coke with me because there are sniffer dogs at the event so I can only drink.

I now find myself sat here planning on how i could get around this by maybe having some a few hours before the concert and disposing of it before we arrive.

Ive stopped to reflect on this way of thinking and realised that when I am due to drink im already thinking about getting a bag in. I dont do it any other time or think about it any other day of the week, only when I know im going out drinking.

I dont like the feeling of being drunk so I feel like taking coke keeps me sharp.

Do I have a problem here...?