Becoming a sissy slowly

Hii, few months ago I started watching feminization videos just curious and now it took over. I keep watching girls get made over, forced into dresses, heels, makeup, and I cant stop. I started trying on clothes in secret, lipstick, panties, all of it. The idea of letting go and fully becoming a sissy feels so right but I havent yet. Im scared but I want to just surrender and be used like that