The best time I’ve had in 10 years

Was when I was abstaining from weed. And my dumbass failed to make that connection every time. I’d have 4 months clean from it, then I’d be like fuck it and go back. It kept me separate from others and I would find comfort in isolation. It made me the worst version of myself. And I was ok with it. I am now seeing it from a different perspective and at this point, I don’t even care about the withdrawals or feeling like shit. I am 100% done with it. I was up all last night cos I couldn’t sleep. The depression felt awful. But it’ll pass. This I know.

I just feel bad about the way I’ve conducted myself. Embarrassed really.