Guilt surrounding lack of intimacy with my partner (cw: sex/intimacy topics)

I want to preface this with saying that my partner in no way shames me, is pushy, or anything else like that surrounding sex. These are entirely my own feelings.

I feel really bad and guilty for not being intimate with my partner as much as I feel like I should. I have a lot of conditions (hEDs, POTs, MECFS, FND, and company) and a lot of them make sex, in any way, painful or overwhelming. I know it’s affecting my partner, but they won’t admit it. We’re still doing other intimate things when I’m able to, but I still feel really bad.

When we got together i was barely disabled, so I feel like I trapped them.

I don’t really know where I was going with this post, I just wanted to be able to relate to someone or get any advice ig.