I cry everytime I think of my dad.

My dad is a good person but hes just a very severe alcoholic. He is an extrovert and a party guy. I remember when I was a kid he always had friends over and was going to parties or going to his friends house.

Now I'm in my 30s and I stayed at his house for a few days. (He lives far away.) He doesn't have a license anymore so he cant go anywhere. Where he lives is far out in the mountains and there is one store he can walk to. He has a really nice house with a really nice basement that is pretty much like a second house. His house is also set up with a bunch of different rooms for guests to sleep in and the basement has a lot of party games. But he doesn't have friends so its just empty.