Why do I like older men?!

Why do I like older men?!

23F and I used to date a 40yo dude. He's been single for a while and honestly, breaking that long time single era of his is quite an achievement for me. Literal na spotlight moment talaga and I am happy to see how his friends are happy for him. It is satisfying. He is stable woth his career and personal life. He could afford a lifestyle he dreamed of.

The thing that I didn't saw coming is... if a guy is old and still single, there's something wrong with him. And yep, there is. Before me, he had an 11 year relationship which is the biggest redflag. But since I was young and he made me believe that I broke his singleness curse, I ignored it. Turns out, he's not willing to settle with me after all, he's very scared to have an unwanted child with me and our intimate time is all improvised lang and honestly, I wanted more.

I eventually ended it but got interested to another older men, same age as my past one. This one is different tho, snob and bery mysterious. He showed interest but not willing to open up so as someone who likes breaking people's stoned hearts, I want to know him moooore, but while this dude is being cold to me, I'm being clingy to him. Idk if he's doing cognitive dissonance with me or what but it's working. I know this guy wants me, he's just scared and I want him to be head over heels for me.

Right know I stopped but I'm still very interested to him haha. But of course I know my worth and honestly, these experiences made me wanna quit with older men.

WHY ARE YOU GUYS SO UNSTABLE?! Akala natin they're willing to settle na but nah, don't fall for that shit. Kbye~